i've been very lazy to come back here
and declare that...
this blog is long dead. ahaha.
i've been blogging elsewhere for ages =X

those who know will know where issit.

Ciao!

nine days since you left...

i still keep having flashbacks of the many things you said and done..
all the memories i have of you...

i'll remember you always...

happy birthday to kun~!!!!!!!! <3
and also..
happy birthday to jing! =P

lalala~~~
my cpu's beyond repair =.=
so its a few more months of internet-less..
before i appear again. sigh -.-

anw, been busy with quite afew things the past few weeks.
i've got very packed schedules! =X

and my spree stuff's accumlating. haha =XX
i got quite anumber of new clothes now... oops.
no no no, im not spending like tapwater hor!
cos im budget-ed and look at sale items more. lols
and im still trying to save $$ too =)
my hongkong trip! cannot fly without me!!! heh.

results. haa.
those who know will know.
i jus want to thanks those who've been answering my never-ending qns. lols.
let's jus hope, everything's gonna be fine.
for now, i can only wait.

recent events...
heard alot, some unintentionally. oops. =X
*cant blame me, pple talked too loudly you know... =x
and i concluded that there's really quite a number of broken hearts. haha!
i dont understand, why the change, when it's not necessary at all.
you can't please everyone, no, nobody will ever be able to please everyone.
but it doesnt mean you need to piss everyone =.=

i've been thinking quite alot, esp after that night..
the chats that emphasis on the innocences of that person.
that person's harmless, not scheming, innocent. 
it's jus how un-intentionally that person always upsets pple around....

-the smile's long gone...

birthday's jus over. it's a not-that-bad one bah.
i don't like to celebrate but i will want to spend the day with friends... heh.
and thanks to all who smsed me =) thanksthanks!!

zhishu, kejing, wallis, sinee, joanna, debbie, sirong, vincent
jacq, ning, laoshi, jenny, zunkit, rach, chailin, qi, jing, anna
wanqi, peggie, jane, jasmine.

and the testimonials i received. thanks lots =)

and thanks "alfred". haha.
he was the first to wish me over the phone.. =)
and thanks guy too.

even "no worries" doesnt help now...
very luan with everything now... hiaks.
the so many uncertainties...
i need my motivation and jiayous!! heh...

the so many things that i miss...
can i turn back time?

comp's down. for a week already... and this really sucks. haha.
cos im dependent on my comp but it's spoilt now =(
and i needa check stuff very often... bleahs.
it's very important to check stuff frequently you know... =X
especially when it's very... important.
and worse of all. i cant MSN!!! boo.
so people who wanna look for me... sms me bahs... =) haha.

anway... nothing much happened recently.
just slacking at home and at slacking at home...
ah! except that i saw the person that i've been wanting to see! =))
haha... that definitely is something that's worth remembering.

went for class with clara, qh on wed.
it was fun! haha. and instructor's good too. =P
crappy instructor with quite a lot of cold jokes.
definitely enjoyable luh.

ahh...exams' really really near already...
mug mug mug!! =X

if i need somebody to talk to...
you'll really be there?

must talk to you if i have problems.
i will, if you're willing to listen... =)
just dont find me too irritating eh.

but so many things cant be told.
what else can i do then?
i really dont know... =X

i just dont want to be the bad.
although, haha. im already termed the "evil".

but i still dont understand.
how on earth did everything even happen eh?

ahhh.... im getting a new blog... soon =)
those who will be updated, will be updated.

and... im still slacking =X
studying alil but slacking most of the time =.=
this is so not good...
i need more motivation!! =X

ridiculous things are still happening.
when will peace return? haha.
kinda impossible to have peace anyway.
but the ridiculous things should stop =.=
too much to handle and digest. haha...

ohyar~ i met up with debbie!! =)
lols. we walked alot of places. haha
ps > peace centre > cityhall > candy empire > bugis > home.
and omg. deb, i finish the bar of macadamia chocolate already =X
im going to die. haha.
i still got my other choco. hehe.
and i've got my rose tea!! yay!!
im finishing one bottle already... haha =X
ahh.. and thanks for the cute hp charm. hehe =)

to brain wash myself...
there's just so many things which i shouldn't have done.
all the "i shouldnt..."
but i've done everything already.
i cant turn back time. it's just not possible.
living with the regrets and moving on still...
it's contradicting.
to want to remember and forget the same memories.
hahahaha.

i really shouldnt have been to PS on the 19th feb.
but at the same time, i never regret going. haha...

but if given a second chance,
i'll still do the same things and also those stuff that i've missed out.
it's tiring but it was also one of the happiest times.
it was one of the best memories i had.

se, what do you think? lols.

ahh. but i still hate the politics =.=

that jappy guy...
hahaha. he's so cute =P
and again, without fail.
he brought smiles to us =)

a lot of ridiculous things are happening recently...
ridiculous until it's alil unbelieveable. but yet, it's all true.
hahaha... had a great laugh at a few with se&sr liao =XX.

it's amazing how one's thinking can be so "straight".
that whatever he/she thinks/concludes is definitely the truth.
think and analyse again eh...

and the retards. omg lar...
QI. your retard friend is making me laugh like mad.
and if you know bout it. i think you'll wanna go bang wall too.
im serious =) lols.
that'll help you destress alil... =P

ahh people... dont do things on your own without asking first eh...
respect man =)) that's very important. hur~

everyone's asking bout my hand. cause it's bandaged. heh.
dont think too much about it though. it's just injuries.
bandaging my hand... ahh. suddenly reminded me of that guy
who was omg-so-serious when asking bout it that time when he saw.
he thought i xiang bu kai... haha.
ah.. even "cool guy" at work place keep asking =.= ahh... so nan de leh. lols.
cos we seldom talk and he's always so quiet and dont like to talk to me one =.=
but he's one super crappy guy. and he's got a 'aiai' who's a guy too.

and it seems like many people had a great week.
ahh... why not for me =X
mooncake festival this year is BORING.
no candle playing session =(
met up with a10 on sat though. for a steamboat session.
thank god the few were not there yet. haa.
bitching session... but more on FOOD.  =))
then to esplanade to "take" lantern. LOL.
it was fun, overall.

ahh... and the internal politics continue... =)

-where's the smile when you needed it most.